yesterday was a damn busy day... worked and the club was fucking packed to the max. and there was only two floor staff.. got shit from the two bastards over not switching off the lights and air-con. how dumb can that be? i guess tonight would be damn packed too. urgh. got the 50cents cd launch party and drinks would be going at 50cents from 7-9. all the cheapskates would be coming down i guess. haha. :P

im beginning to feel the vibes coming from vivek.. i guess thats a good thing. as for jonathan.. things r pretty much stagnant btwn me and him.. good i guess. going out with him on monday.. i think we're gonna go to sentosa go tanning. heheh. havent tanned for a damn long time.. yay! the only thing im looking forward to for the next week. urgh, have to work thru sunday this week, ryda is sick. she'd be on MC for 5 days. something abt her ear infection. i hope she gets well soon.. or at least she's ok. the best part would be the cash i guess. heheh.

ok, if can i'll go and meet vivek and ryan later.. before i go to work. for now i have to go get ready, if not i'd be late and i cannot meet them.. then have to go straight to work. *sigh* damn tired. and im craving for prata. SHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAHHHHH Alam prata of course. hehheh

did i mention that till now i still havent hugged vivek? *sigh*

been abt two weeks since i posted.. shucks... i need to start posting more.. need to keep this place more updated. i think ive got quite abit to talk abt. firstly, about vivek. then jonathan(guy from indigo) vivek came back from his trip to bombay.. those he was only there for like 11 days.. i missed him. and i got to know his guy who works at indigo, he is a bartender, he is called jonathan, he is indian eurasian and he is 23. he is a sagittarus.. nice guy i tell u. went out with him on the same day i went out with vivek. had a pretty enjoyable time though i got damn wasted that night at tha wu. he was really nice, took great care of me though i was puking, and he sent me home nicely. :) we kissed that night, but it wasnt much, cos it was afterall the stakes of the pool table. i lost to him, so he got a kiss. on the same night, i found out that travis, an old friend of mine would be going into prison.. he peddled drugs.. ice and weed.. and he got caught. was kinda sad. dont like seeing or knowing that friends r going into prison u know..
anyways.. talking abt jonathan.. he lives in hougang and he said that he'd love to go out with me again. i would love to go out with him, but some part of me is afraid cos im someone who falls in love so easily. jonathan is like the perfect househusband, he cooks, cleans, bakes, and etc.. the way he talks to me.. like for example, he'd go, come to my house one day and u'd see my bed and my room, very neat.. and i'd cook for u.. bake nice cakes and cookies.. *sigh* i feel strong vibes from him.. but no i cant, i've always been waiting for vivek to come back from bombay.. and i also found out that he feels the same way abt me too, just that he wants to take things slow.. but like vanessa(my colleague) says, does vivek expect me to wait for him to make the move?
but at the same time, she told me that if i dont like jonathan, tell him straight and dont wait till he likes me many many then break his heart. i dont wanna do that, i dont want to hurt anyone. not vivek, not jonathan and i dont wanna get hurt.
no one has any idea how afraid i am to make a decision btwn them two. cos there is always a risk involved. im so afraid of things not working out and hitting back into square one again...
yesterday i worked and i was bitten by a human being.. bitten by this guy on the cheek.. he was leaving and he kissed me cheek to cheek but suddenly bite my left cheek. fuck it hurt. i screamed out in pain balls... i forgot to mention.. this guy who bit me.. i knew him from sometime back.. he's a regular at wu bar. but i got to know him cos of cleo.. i interviewed him before.. but the worst thing a guy could ever say to a girl would be.. u put on weight man.. and yes he said that to me.. urgh.

hmmm... been two weeks since chinese new year.. visiting was okay.. nothing much.. collected abit of cash.. returned dil his cash too. so i guess things were pretty alright. remember that time i worked full-time with thaWu bar then i quit cos mom wasnt happy abt me working there 6 days a week? now im doing part-time with them.. i get to choose when i wanna work.. but then today is valentine's day and i still have to work. im so sad. i feel lonelier than ever.

oh yeah.. last monday.. i fought with the bitch of a sister of mine. the eldest one. she attcaked me twice and she scratched me. i was just sitting by the com. just started chatting then she asked mom to take away the keyboard.. then when mom didnt. she took it herself. so i swore at her.. called her fucking bitch.. then she threatened to slap me.. then i told her i wasnt afraid of her.. so she came unto me and tried to slap me.. i blocked and struggled with her and then she scratched me. i began to bleed.. fucking painful i tell u.. started to cry cos of the pain.. then i called aresha.. asked her if i could stay over at her place.. and all the while i was on the phone, mom and that bitch was always listening in. she attacked me a second time when i was walking thru the kitchen doorway and she was in my way.. i pushed my way thru and she pushed me and tried to hit me again. i kicked her in the stomach and she was thrown for abt a metre back. heheheheheh. finally... i defended myself! :) then i packed my stuff and ran out of the house in tears. i was supposed to go to give tuition at 6:30 and 8 at thawu.. but cos i looked like fuck.. i didnt go for both.. in the end.. i went to meet the fellas.. aresha, siva, tas, jonathan, manz, kumz, harpreet at devonshire..