currently waiting for jon to come over to my place to pick me up. btu wat im worried is that he went off thinking that i was asleep when i was in the shower. didnt get any calls cept at 3:30am. its already 5. why do i have the strange feeling that he's actually home? *sigh* i hope not. i hope that if he is at home, he'd at least call to let me know that he is home, despite how late it already is now.

-pause-

he is finally here. was a little worried at first, found out that raj had kept the staff back late for a meeting. raj would call it a briefing but there is nothing brief abt it, so i call it a meeting.

i gotta go over to jon's place now. kinda late already. it's his off day tmrw and he wants to watch HULK the movie. so i guess we'd be watching it. alrite. would be back in a couple of days i think, but dont bet on it. im off now. till next time! tata!

spongebob squarepants! god.. i've been so addicted to that cartoon man. its a silly cartoon but its really enjoyable. its about this yellow color sponge called spongebob squarepants cos squarepants r the only stuff he wears. he's got two friends, a really stupid pink starfish called patrick and a squid with a big dick like nose called squidward(as in edward) and they all live in bikini bottom, an underwater city. should really check out the cartoon. if i knew how to upload pictures, i would have uploaded pics of spongebob and of course jonathan. =P u know, im thinking of buying a spongebob plush toy for jon, cos he totally adores spongebob, need to go to toys'r'us to see if they have it there. if not i'd have to order it from amazon.com and send it over to jon's place. heh. am i nice and sweet to jon or wat? =X ok, enough of self-praise man.
anyways, im starting school in a week's time and my ex-bf robert leland, my first bf.. is coming back from norway for a holiday, i think im gonna meet up with him and catch up. kinda miss him, it's been a while since he went back to norway for university. told jon abt robert's coming back and he seems abit pensive abt it, cos he doesnt trust ang mohs. *shrugs* then suddenly he said that he wanted to meet robert too. weird. dont think i'd ever let my bf meet my ex bfs. bad thing to do. very bad thing.

home sweet home
home at last. finally can get my hands on the computer and my darling internet. had to come home to download my timetable for school. went for orientation on friday for the sake of getting my timetable but who knows.. after many boring hours with all the introduction and stuff. knowing who my classmates would be and all. they said they wouldnt give us our timetables and that we would have to retrieve it from the website. wasted my time man..
but the most sad part of that whole orientation was finding out that there are absolutely no cute guys in my class and most of the ppl in class r females... and they all look damn geeky and 'guai'(ppl who follow the rules and arent rebels). and i also did a rough scan of all the ppl taking fms(film and media studies) and noticed that there are only a pathetic few good looking guys in the whole school of film and media studies. urgh. not enough eyecandy to go around. as for the rest of them, they all look so geeky! and some of them think fms is all abt the glam and stuff. so they come to school like everyday is a fashion parade. (**recap: for those who didnt know that i got into mass communication studies in ngee ann poly, this note is for u =))

Tired and sleepy
got quite abit of things to tell. havent been posting so i guess thats a good reason why i got so many things to tell in this post. been at jon's place.. but i have been home for the past two days. no time to come online i guess. been trying to catch up on my sleep. been sick too. working, sick and staying at jon's.

two saturdays ago was raymond's(this goodlooking suave eurasian guy who is my friend. heh) birthday and we(vick, their friends n me) went down thawu to celebrate i guess. was supposed to cook for raymond but i didnt, cos i was broke. that night was quite alrite, jon was working at angel's(this club that replaced indigo-jon's former workplace) but he quit cos he didnt like it there. did i mention before that raymond's good friend vick is a nice guy? they r all nice ppl. love them to bits, lately. they've been the ones i see most, cos they come to my club. anyways, raymond loves me like his sister. kisses me on my forehead, head, hair all. love that kind of attention. that night they opened a 1 litre bottle of JD.. and i was the only girl in the company of 6 other guys.i danced with them as a group and danced with raymond and vick exclusively. but the most exclusive went to vick. *shrugs* dont know why but i think i kinda like him a tiny bit. good looking guys catch my attention. he asked me to dance and i did. we bumped and grinded with one another and i culd feel some attraction and vibes going on btwn us. but to me, it was just a dance. i told jon abt it and he was fine with it.

who knows, come a week after that, i find out that vick likes me. he is really attracted to me. we were smsing one another (i was bored at work and jon was working too), and i asked him wat he thought about me. he said that thoughts dont matter but whenever he was with me, there were vibes of attraction btwn us. i agree man. im damn surprised to find out that a good looking guy like him would like a simple girl like me. shockingly that night, raymond kinda joked and said, "steph, why didnt u meet me earlier?" he was referring to why we didnt get the chance to date one another. but the truth is, i did know him earlier, before i met jon but we didnt get to meet before i met jon. i hope i make sense. anyways, back to the sms thingy. vick asked me wat i thought about him. and i told him honestly. that he is nice, sweet and all. and that if i was single, i would have asked him out. (too bad im not, and im quite happy with how things are with jon. happy but not exactly happy happy, if u know wat i mean)

i dont get it. when im dating someone exclusively, other men come all over me. but when im single and available, no one comes my way. and they r all good looking single men. fuck that shit man.

oh yeah, it is halim's birthday on thursday. im working on thursday so we're all celebrating tmrw. gonna go for the foam party at hendrix tmrw. yay. pretty excited about it actually. heard that alot of ppl r going for it. im excited cos jon is going with me =) meeting halim and cam tmrw, with jon as well. havent seen jon for a day. miss him a little.

well.. things r not really fantastic btwn me and jon. been arguing alot. over small stupid things. i think i must control my anger a little bit more and be more tolerable. just 3 days ago, had a massive fight with jon. i was crying and shit. i think it was last saturday. jon was working and usually, when he takes the company transport home, he'd be home by 4:30am or so. but i waited and waited till like 5 plus in the morn and he wasnt home.. (i was at his place remember? and i was waiting up for him, i always do wait up for him if he is working and im not) didnt get any smses or calls from him saying that he was coming home or had plans watsoever.(he'd usually call or sms saying that he just finished work or something) so when it was like 5, i called him. no answer. i was so worried already then. cos i'd never know if he's gonna like get into a fight with some guys and have to 'settle some problems', his own words. when he didnt pick up my call.. i was so worried that i broke down into tears. after that i smsed him to ask him where he is and it took a damn long while before he replied and said that he was eating with his friends. i got upset and said, then why didnt u pick up my call.. then he replied and said 'drinking la'.. i tell u.. i flew into a rage man. i replied him and said, 'did it occur to u that ur girlfriend is waiting for u at home and that she is worried when she didnt get any calls or smses n u didnt pick up her calls?' though i was in a rage, i was still crying...

when jon got home. i was turned away from him, didnt want to let him know that i was crying and all. but he saw and asked me wat was wrong. then we argued and stuff... *sigh* i dont want to go into the details... can get pretty boring cos its always the same shit.
the next day after we fought, we didnt speak a word to one another.. then i left for work in that evening and said bye to everyone in his family but him...

ok.. i really cannot take it anymore. i'll continue this thingy later in the day. i need to get some sleep. -outz-