The Super 6

ever wondered if the super six applied to urself? well, if u think about it carefully.. it really does. thinking wat the super six are? well, they are what, when, where, who, why and how. now let me tell u how it would apply to me and maybe u can figure how it would apply to u too. :)

what? when i first wake up in the morning, i would say. "FUCK! What time is it?!" if not i would go, "what should i eat for lunch today?" or.. "what the fuck do you want?" or.. "what is your fucking problem?" and "what assignments do we have?", "what happened?", "what went wrong?", "what is he doing now?"

next you have when? "when is the assignment due?", "when are we going clubbing again?", "when is he going to call me?", "when is my period coming?", "when is the bitch going to pay me?", "when would i ever see him again?"

where? "where are we going?", "where shall we go next?", "where is tat?", "where is he now?"

then is who? "who is that bitch?", "who is going clubbing this weekend?", "who the fuck is he/she?"

why? why is she so anal today?", "why hasnt he called me?", "why doesnt he reply my msges?", "why is he so cold towards me?", "why did i go back to him?", "why do we always fight and argue?", "why can't we be happy?", "why did i find someone i really liked and yet not let me have him?", "why can't i be happy?", "why do shit always happen?", "why is everything so fucked up?"

lastly, there is the how? "how am i going to finish the assignment on time?", "how can i be happy?", "how can i ace this semester?", "how can i earn more money this month?", "how did things become this way?", "how did i end up like this?", "how can i see him again?", "how the fuck do i know?", "how i can change things?" and "how i wish i can turn back time?"

actually, there are alot more which the super 6 would apply to my daily life. wondering why the sudden inspiration to touch on the super 6? well... i think its cos i had my newswriting make up tutorial today. it was boring today. was the post mortem for field assignment 1. the national day write up. she wanted us to discuss wat we enjoyed most abt the assignment. u know wat i said?

hahaha. i said the adrenaline of burning midnight oil. hahahhahaha. =P then later came the question.. so wat problems did we face while doing the assignment. i said i suffered from writers' block. u know.. mind a complete blank, no inspiration then cannot write. hahahah. i think if im a reporter for a newspaper.. my newspaper wouldnt be published daily but as and when i have an inspiration. hurhurhur.

to be honest, i have plenty of things on my mind rite now. most of them abt relationships and my feelings. i know i should be thinking abt my schoolwork now cos i have tons of them on my hands but if my relationships are not going well.. i really wouldnt be able to concentrate on schoolwork. when i talk abt relationships, im not just referring to my relationship with jonathan.

im also referring to friendships and relationships at home. relationships at home with the mother is not good. she seems to be pissed off at me. for some reason. she started being angry at me on thursday. tat night after i went to chinablack on wednesday, don came to pick me up and sent me to jonathan's place. in the day time on wednesday, jon and i actually argued again. over the issue of a sex band. im thinking if i should elaborate on the issue of the sex band. if i do, its going to be a long entry, though its already very long. maybe u guys should let me know if i should tell the sex band story. hahaha. continuing.. i stayed over at jon's tat wednesday night. when i got back home the following day, i mom began raving and ranting abt me not coming home the previous night. i get why she is angry but im puzzled.

why puzzled? well.. simply cos in the past, i used to stay over at jon's like 3 days a week or more.. and she didnt say anything. and now.. im like staying over either once a week or less. im hardly ever at his place now. then she is like sooo angry and so unhappy about it. weird. so right now, my mom is like not talking to me.. oh well..

oh yeah, i was electric shocked today in the shower. i was taking a shower.. then i felt that the water wasnt hot enough so i reached up for the heater.. for the knob.. i dont know wat i was touching or turning and suddenly, i felt this pain that shook my finger. i couldnt feel my finger for a moment there. but im fine.. just a shock thankfully. guess which finger? of all fingers, it had to be my middle finger. hahahahahha. wat the fuck rite? imagine if it was a strong shock or a fatal one. then i would have been dead. NAKED. urgh. wat a horrible and embarrassing way to die. burnt, cooked and naked. wah lao. i would never want to die or be found dead tat way man. lol.

okay la. i think i blogged enuff already. tired of typing. heehhe. will blog tmrw if i have the time. aiya. most prolly i would cos im rather free. :P

kinky winky

hurhurhur. no im not horny or feeling kinky. just my nickname on msn. initially it was pinky winkie. but then ryan came along and said, "no, it should be kinky winky." inspired, i changed to kinky winky! hahaha. sounds so me eh? ahahhaa.

submitted my ad analysis today, slept only at 6am and woke up around 8plus. headed to school and printed my stuff. lucky i made it before the deadline of 12pm. heh. thanks to sarah, she's so nice, help me submit after i mounted my work. thanks babe!

let's pause for awhile...

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this is my work schedule at the esplanade for the rest of the month.. not many :( only have two confirmed ones left.

27th Aug, Friday : SDT - Awakening 8pm @ Theatre (6:30pm-10:30pm)
29th Aug, Sunday : The Legends Musical Nite (In Tamil) 8pm @ Theatre (5:30pm-11pm)

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okay, back to wat i was saying... feline still owes me my pay. and im waiting for my esplanade pay as well. so currently im like eating air. ha ha ha.

as of now, im just gonna go a count of the number of assignments i have on my hands.

*note: the end of the two week break marks week 10. the last week of school is week 15

1. ad campaign (due in Week 14)
2. media management pt1 (due on 30th Aug) highest priority!
3. media management pt2 (due in Week 15)
4. media research: -final project (due in Week 14)
5. tv production demo assignment (due in Week 13, if im not wrong)
6. newswriting field assignment 2 (due at the end of the semester)
7. PQS project (due at the end of the semester)
8. radio production - stereo assignment (due in Week 11 or 12)

tats about it. i havent included some individual assignments yet.. cos their not assigned to us yet. but this is the minimum number. yes 8. if i dont blog, tats cos i dont even have the time to sleep, let alone blog. i guess working at the esplanade would be kept to the minimum too as well i guess. unless im lucky to get some shows tat would fit nicely into my schedule. oh yeah, not forgetting tat i might be working for feline for all my weekends in september and the first weekend of oct. though i would rather work at the esplande cos they pay me more and the work is so much more relaxed. i guess working for feline has its perks too. like how the money comes in at such unfixed timings tat i would have money in btwn my fixed pays. lol. odd reasoning isnt it? haha.

im bored. this two week break is boring. esp when im broke. cant do much without those crisp notes. ah fuck. oh yeah! forgot to mention about boys. remember in one of my entries i mentioned tat im having luck in men.. hahah. once again im in contact with a really old friend i havent seen in say wat.. 3 years? his name is alex him.. i used to have a huge crush on him in 2001 when i just came into ngee ann poly, in I.T. he was the Freshmen Orientation Camp Chief. sharon and i was so crazy over him cos he looked so cute. anyways, back to alex. we dont have one another's contact number and we really hardly contact or talk. usually i would only see him online on icq. but it was not frequent. he graduated when i was in year two I.T. later he went on into the army.

so.. out of the blue, he suddenly msged me on icq and we decided to exchange numbers and stay in touch. we talked online for hours and i think my interest in him is kinda still there. hahaha. we flirted online man. hilarious. we talked abt meeting up.. me cooking pasta for him.. we clubbing together sometime and all tat. it was nice warm fuzzy feeling. :) its just nice to catch up with old friends.

im really itching to go out man. im thinking of heading to chinablack later tonight since its ladies nite and leave early cos im broke. need to catch a bus home. if andy(one of my colleagues at the esplanade) can make it.. i guess i'll go. it'd be odd going alone.

ahahah.. so many new guy friends in my circle. how exciting. im also having quite a bit of fun working at the esplanade. got to watch fireworks and the revenge of the dimsum dollies. it was a good show. so funny. watched it 3 times and i still laughed at their jokes. :D

okay. i think this is all for now.. take care u all.. i'll blog soon. :)

FaceLift!

hey y'all! i decided to give this blog a makeover.. so viola! anita helped me with some of the redesigning of this skin.. so big thanks to her! :) i'll be back to blog soon. now i gotta go work on my ad analysis cos it is due in just 7 hours?? ah! bbl! :D

Sorry?

i think my blog to all of u out there is way overdue. i want to apologise but i know i dont mean it so why say it rite? i just realised that it is my blog and i would blog as and when i can or i please. sound like im in a bad mood? i guess i am. okay i dont guess. yes i am.

my mom just bitched. cant recall when she last did but yeah she is at it. this time it is my fault. i had dinner and i didnt wash my plate. then she went on and on.. saying this saying that. saying tat when we were younger, we used to spilt up the work and write up a roster. yeah.. like she said, tat was when we were younger. next, she went on to say tat now that we have grown up and working, we dont give her money.

to my mom though i know she wouldnt see(bryant, if u see this, shut the fuck up):

hello? im not working full-time? if i was, i would give u some. dont say all tat to me cos im not working full-time. besides, ur intended audience is ur two eldest daughters who are already working. not my fault they are not giving u money.
anyways, its been say wat 2-3 weeks since u gave me allowance. i didnt say anything or ask. i just keep quiet and eat air in school.

and mom, i havent been getting enough rest cos of schoolwork, could u be more understanding and dont scream? my headache is already bad enuff as it is with all the stress from schoolwork and the lack of sleep. i really dont need my headache to become any worse. i appreciat all you are doing for me and our family but sometimes, please.. i need my time off and some peace. u want to bitch at us, choose a better time? -end-

many reasons make up why im upset. i'd just list a few...

1. i've got two assignments due tmrw(my radio commercial and my ad analysis)
2. im broke.
3. having a rift with jon(what's new?)
4. i gave up 3 shows this week for schoolwork(which is equivalent to $100)
5. i dont have enough rest = im tired
6. i have quite a bit of stuff on my mind
7. im lonely. (ironic eh?)

quick message for those i havent seen in a while. big hello to winnie, i saw her in school for the bazaar. "regards to u my gf. take care of urself. we'll party or meet up soon eh? i miss you". i know nick wouldnt get to see this but wat the hell... "i miss you. dearly." sad to say, i think we're not even friends now. friends dont do the things you do. friends dont do the things we did. and friends dont ignore friends with words like "im busy". to halim, "dude, im sorry i havent been there for you. i have no excuse. but u've always been a friend to me. probably the truest friend i'd ever have in my life, please do continue being my friend if i do deserve it. i really do love you as a friend. i can guarantee that i'd be crying my eyes till they pop when i send u off at the airport. you are dear to me.." to hanizah, though she doesnt read my blog, "oi babe, u take care of yourself can? let's work hard! be it in school, work or our lovelife. i know u care alot for me and i do too for you. you are one of my closest gfs, i know im not ur best friend but u are dear to me as well. never give up! let's stick together!" to anita, "once my partner in crime, always my partner in crime. to more late nights together. let's hang in there!" not forgetting sharon my best friend in australia, "sharon, my best friend, for 14 years, still my best friend. im glad to see that things have always been good or at least smooth for you. work hard in australia, i do miss you and meiyen. i wont forget u guys. forgive me if ive been busy with school. i still think back to the days we shared together. i miss those days." actually, i have alot to say to alot of ppl but i dont think there would be enuff space here to say everything down to everyone.

i dont know why but i feel melancholic. i feel blue. some might think that i seem like im leaving my last words. maybe i am. i dont know. there are some things which i dont think i'd like to say. i think im just going to keep it to myself for now.

quick update for all. ive got say... 9 assignments on my hands now. sorry if i havent been free to meet up with anyone. plus ive been working at the esplanade.. anyways, ive got suggestions from friends saying tat i should put up frequent updates on the shows at the esplanade since i get to watch them. like show reviews. i was thinking it is a good idea but i need ppl to gimme their views. drop ur views in the tagboard. :)

then i got to know a few new guys.. there's yi xian.. my colleague at work.. rather nice fellow. ;) then there's jon.. another jonathan.. nice and okay dude., havent met him.. then there's shawn. actually know him from before.. met him up for dinner with binks. then there's don. havent met him either. he seems perverse though. hahaha. oops. im widening my social circle. but i dont seem to be going out alot more. ahaha.

nothing else to update i think. other than im waiting for my pay to come in at the end of the month. the last pay i got i spent already. heh. i just cant save money. bleh. oh yeah, did i mention tat i got my internship like finalised? yeah i did. yippee! so happy. well.. i guess i'd only see nick on october 25th. tats my first day of ITP. nick's birthday is on the 28th.. im gonna bake him muffins i guess. :) i know its stupid of me.. but i still want and am going to do it. im stubborn. wat to do? :P