Waayyyyyy Time part 1

hey u all. sorry for not being able to blog. quite alot of things has happened all this while. firstly, i was at SGH on the 14th. went for my colonoscopy which was scheduled at around 1:30pm. im not going to explain wat it is.. kinda embarassing. so.. i was admitted for the day.. didnt have to stay overnight.. then i was put on anaesthesia.. they first poked the needle linked to tube linked to syringe.. into my right hand.. one of the veins.. then they realised no blood came out.. nurse said that my vein's too thin.. no blood. hahah. painful man. then doctor made fun of me and asked if im a pampered daughter who doesnt do any form of housework watsoever. i protested.. then they grabbed my left hand and kept whacking it.. attempting to look for a thick vein. ah ha! they found one. a super thick bulging one. its at the side of my left wrist. doctor was like telling me how it wont hurt but i ended screaming and said tat he lied. after a while.. i was half laughing and half crying from the pain.. then he asked me if i felt sleepy.. i said a little bit and the next moment.. i concussed.

i awoke only to find myself to be awakened by the nurse. everything was over. somehow i got up and she led me to the toilet and handed my things/clothes back to me and somehow i got changed. why do i say somehow? cos i really cant recall that i put on my clothes by myself.. or how i did it. hahaha. it was hilarious.

then they gave me a cup of milo.. sat me down somewhere. i didnt realise tat i fell asleep.. then i was holding the milo in my hand. next thing i knew.. the nurse woke me up and said, "girl, dont hold the milo and sleep.. later spill." then she took my milo and put it on the table.

and somehow i left tat department and went to meet my mom downstairs. i was supposed to go to blk 4 level 1. i took the lift and exited on some storey. i dont know which.. and stopped in my footsteps and puked. do note tat i didnt eat anything the night before and tat morning or after. i guess the sip of milo which i had.. my stomach just couldnt take it. i threw up on the floor. and also cos the anaesthesia having its effect on me. i was later wheeled to where i was supposed to go.. and my mom met me.. went to pick up my medication and later took a bus home.

i slept all the way on the bus back home. i was exhausted. must be the anaesthesia.

i think im going to stop here. i cant stop crying. there r so many things on my mind. im thinking abt jon.. abt school, about my friends and about everything tat has been going on in my life. im depressed. im lonely and im tired. my life seems to be going in circles. i keep ending up at the same place. i want to cry my heart out. im in pain, my heart is hurting.

i want to grab someone and burst into tears...

Short Entry

hey all. sorry i havent been blogging. been sick for a week plus. started off coughing, then lost my voice, then came a runny nose.. then finally a full blown flu. went to see a doctor already and am now on medication. was on 2 days MC on monday and tuesday. have i mentioned how much i hate to take medication?

haaha. i think this year has been a year of alot of things. its been a fairly good year for me, but it has also been a year which i have been ill rather often as well. maybe its the lack of sleep, the busy schedule, the lack of fluids and all the stress and problems which i have been facing throughout the year.

anyways.. im was at SGH today for my medical appointment at 2:50pm. was late cos i was held up in school. but im really apologetic cos i couldnt stay behind in school to help the rest in my advertising project to mount the stuff. my consultation came up to a sum of about 50 dollars.. its considered cheap already.. since i was at the specialist outpatient clinic. i shan't go into the ghastly details of my consultation. . let's just say that i need to go back to the SGH for a mini procedure on sept 14th(tuesday) at around 1pm. i would have to be admitted.. but no worries, its juat a day admission.. i dont think i need to stay overnight at the hospital. but i'd be on MC tat day. confirm. cos the nurse said tat the procedure is only done on tuesdays. how odd. im kinda scared abt the results. let's just say its not really looking good for me. anyways.. so now i have like 6 kinds of medication to take... including my flu medication.

ah ha! just remembered. i bought a new hp casing for my samsung x430 flipfone. its a doraemon cover. rather cute. hahaha. was at the hospital registration counter and on the phone with andy then the nurse saw my phone and started asking me and saying how cute my cover is. hahahah. then there was this discussion among the nurses abt my cover. amusing man. andy said my cover is really attention grabbing. bleh. im not AS okay? note** AS = attention seeker.

hmmm.. im feeling drowsy already. medication is taking its toll on me. i need to get up early tmrw anyways.. got advertising at 8am. loooong day tmrw. 8am-6pm. someone save me. take care y'all. anita.. if u are reading this.. i miss u and i hope everything is fine... take care okay? *hugs*