been abt two weeks since i posted.. shucks... i need to start posting more.. need to keep this place more updated. i think ive got quite abit to talk abt. firstly, about vivek. then jonathan(guy from indigo) vivek came back from his trip to bombay.. those he was only there for like 11 days.. i missed him. and i got to know his guy who works at indigo, he is a bartender, he is called jonathan, he is indian eurasian and he is 23. he is a sagittarus.. nice guy i tell u. went out with him on the same day i went out with vivek. had a pretty enjoyable time though i got damn wasted that night at tha wu. he was really nice, took great care of me though i was puking, and he sent me home nicely. :) we kissed that night, but it wasnt much, cos it was afterall the stakes of the pool table. i lost to him, so he got a kiss. on the same night, i found out that travis, an old friend of mine would be going into prison.. he peddled drugs.. ice and weed.. and he got caught. was kinda sad. dont like seeing or knowing that friends r going into prison u know..
anyways.. talking abt jonathan.. he lives in hougang and he said that he'd love to go out with me again. i would love to go out with him, but some part of me is afraid cos im someone who falls in love so easily. jonathan is like the perfect househusband, he cooks, cleans, bakes, and etc.. the way he talks to me.. like for example, he'd go, come to my house one day and u'd see my bed and my room, very neat.. and i'd cook for u.. bake nice cakes and cookies.. *sigh* i feel strong vibes from him.. but no i cant, i've always been waiting for vivek to come back from bombay.. and i also found out that he feels the same way abt me too, just that he wants to take things slow.. but like vanessa(my colleague) says, does vivek expect me to wait for him to make the move?
but at the same time, she told me that if i dont like jonathan, tell him straight and dont wait till he likes me many many then break his heart. i dont wanna do that, i dont want to hurt anyone. not vivek, not jonathan and i dont wanna get hurt.
no one has any idea how afraid i am to make a decision btwn them two. cos there is always a risk involved. im so afraid of things not working out and hitting back into square one again...
yesterday i worked and i was bitten by a human being.. bitten by this guy on the cheek.. he was leaving and he kissed me cheek to cheek but suddenly bite my left cheek. fuck it hurt. i screamed out in pain balls... i forgot to mention.. this guy who bit me.. i knew him from sometime back.. he's a regular at wu bar. but i got to know him cos of cleo.. i interviewed him before.. but the worst thing a guy could ever say to a girl would be.. u put on weight man.. and yes he said that to me.. urgh.