URGH

SO IRRITATED! been trying to change the font color of my BlogPost Heading but nothing i do seems to be able to change it. so im giving up for now.

anyways, back to my post. yes i know i havent been posting in more than half a year. everyone's been asking me why i havent been posting. well not everyone, just winnie. hee. =P one of the reasons is that i honestly couldnt be bothered with it anymore. lol. another is that ive been pretty occupied with schoolwork and all.

just a quick update. its coming to the end of my second semester in year one and it's been a really hectic semester. lots of things happening all the time. so many things to do all the time and so little time. loads of my old friends from my former course are all graduating this semester. kinda envious of them. but at the same time, i was reminded by an old friend that... at least im doing something i like. thats true in a way but then again... -sigh- i dont know. im freaked abt the next semester. im not really looking forward to it. been told that it is going to be alot worse than year 1. and to be honest, year 1 is quite bad already. loadsa projects, consecutive deadlines, projects crammed one after the other. its pretty suffocating actually. but the good thing is that ive been working pretty hard too. i can almost say that an A is guaranteed for one of my modules. =D

and to those who are thinking of asking me... abt my lovelife.. hurhurhur. yeah im still with jonathan. its almost been 14months since we first began. but all this while i havent been posting.. well.. its been a rollercoaster ride. we fight alot more now. i know its bad. he said i changed, but i havent. the only aspect that ive changed is my attitude towards school and my work. im now more motivated to do stuff and ive been putting in effort. but if it comes to my feelings towards him, it has never changed. it has only grown stronger. i still love him as much as i did 14 months ago.

-sigh- it really hasnt been a smooth ride. been having so much problems. though lots of things changed. like his career... he is now working at al dente at the esplanade. he's been working there for about 3 months, as a cook. but it looks like he is getting a promotion real soon. he's gonna get promoted to sous chef and transferred to a new branch near his present workplace. that would mean a pay increase. im happy for him but somehow, i sense that the redlight is blinking in our relationship. i love him alot but it really seems impossible to be with him. i'll go into detail abt wat's been going on soon in later posts.

but in the meantime, i really need to go to bed. im dead sleepy. can barely keep my eyes open. goodnight y'all, and welcome back to my world! =)