Ola!
i know i know. i havent been blogging in like a week. dont blame me lah. but dont blame jon also. not his fault. anyways, im back here to blog already right? so dont complain la. :P
a sequel to my last entry. know wat? my mom didnt give me shit. on the contrary, she's been really nice to me. scary aint it? yeah it was at the beginning but i guess she's just hoping that if the hard approach didnt work, prolly the soft one should. well i guess it does work.
jon's work at regent seems smooth, been a week and he is already been put in charge of the pastry dept. impressive aint it? alot of things are being discussed. seems that jon wants to transfer overseas to some four seasons hotel in like hawaii maui. wat i told him was tat if he intended to make that transfer within this two and a half years, im not going with him and it would also mark the end of our relationship. cos im not going to agree with having a long distance relationship. i know its tough and it hardly ever works out. so thats wat i said, "if u're going in this two and a half years, im not going with u. im not going to be in a long distance relationship. and neither would i want to be in the way of ur career. i'd love to see u succeed in life and not miss the opportunity but im sorry. i just cant be that understanding as to put my own interests at risk, and risk both of us getting hurt." i mean i would love to marry this guy and join him wherever his career takes him but just not in these two and a half years. not when i have to finish my course of study.
i really do love jon alot. he means everything to me and i really cant imagine my life without him.
last saturday was rory's and skinny ryan's birthday party at east coast costa sands. was pretty alrite i guess. somehow i dont know why, i saw myself straying away from the crowd and seeking solace at the playground nearby. jon was enjoying himself and talking to the peeps who were there, i didnt want to take his fun away from him so i just slipped away. in the end, he noticed my disappearance and looked high and low for me.. in the end, he did find me. we spent time there alone at the playground, he kept trying to get me into going back to the party but i just didnt want to. but after much nudging and tugging, i relented and went back to join the others.
during the party, i caught up with many old friends. esp vanessa. havent caught up with her in ages. but that night was a bad night for her. she didnt have it easy being caught btwn her two friends. i dont want to go into it cos it is not my issue and im in no position to divulge anything.
in that night alone, jon said alot of things to me. and i said alot of things to him. he spilled alot of heart to heart things to one another. from then did i realise how much he loved me. never thought or imagined how someone could actually love me as much as jon loves me. his biggest fear is to lose me. and i told him that no one, nothing could ever take me away from him. only death could take me away from him. and he replied and said to me, "even death cant take u away from me. i wont let him. cos do u think i'd want to live if u died? i would want to die too if u died."
i have never heard anyone say such things to me and vouch his love for me with death, he even said that he would slash his hand there and then to prove the truth in his words.
i didnt know how to respond to him, for all i know in my heart is that there is no one, NO ONE, in this world i would love more than Jonathan. all the while we talked, we were looking into one another's eyes and our hands were locked together.
sounds so much like a fairy tale doesnt it? but and happy to say that its not and it happened to me. i feel like the luckiest person in the world. even though in our relationship that i didnt feel lucky at all, i can still say that my heart has been stolen. stolen by a triad gangster.