Bad Day or Horrible Day?
hmmm.. i think it has been more of a bad day than a horrible day. not to that extent yet i guess.

woke up really early today for work at starbucks. my shift was from 6:45am-12pm. then i had to give tuition to Claudia at 1:30pm. Tuition ended at around 3:15 or so. Not too bad. just really tired. exhausted more or less. been giving tuition and working at starbucks these days. still undergoing training. my espresso bar certification test is on the 29th. oh yeah, my final speech presentation is on tuesday and my partner is Hanizah. our topic is chocolate. everyone in class seems to be expecting a good speech from me. my last speech was on wine and i did a demo. my lecturer loved it cos she loves wine. heh. not that i knew that she loved wine. just a coincidence.

well.. back to wat i was saying, abt my day. argued with jon earlier. so i guess that explains why im home tonight. home is like a refuge nowadays. when something goes wrong with jon and i, i'll run back home and seek solitude.

sometimes, i really think that i have a fucking thoughtless inconsiderate arsehole of a bf. fucking cb u know. was thinking tat since he'd been working so hard the past week, so i would go rent some movies and we'd watch together...
so fine lah, i rented 2 fast 2 furious, lord of the rings-fellowship of the ring and the two towers, and ju-on. so we watched lotr one and two together. watched two just now and i told him i was tired and i wanted to go sleep first and watch it another time.. he said he'd watch it without me. he watched it before already but i havent.
i even rented ju-on whn i hate horror movies and i told him i'd watch it with him in the day. just now i left his house and took the vcds with me.. he can still ask me to leave it cos he wants to watch it. wah lao eh... movie or me more impt?
then just now he said he's gonna go play pool with his colleagues later.. and considering the fact that i tot he'd be working at 5:30am tmrw cos he didnt tell me otherwise, i bitched abt him going out late and not being able to get enuff sleep.
then he can still snap at me and say that he is sick and tired of me bitching abt his work. please lah.. im not bitching abt his work. if he was working at 5:30am. he'd have to wake up at 4am. and thing is.. later THEN he told me he is working at 7am.
if i knew earlier.. would i have bitched? NO.

i told him that he didnt tell me earlier.. then he said would it matter? of course it would have. he said that it would not cos he still gets home around the same time after work. he just doesnt get it. i dont really give a damn if he comes home late or wat but whether he gets there in time.

one morning, i even woke up when i didnt have to.. woke him up for work, made him a cuppa milo and spread butter on two slices of bread for him. who would fucking do that for him?

im a fucking wuss i tell u. so fucking bloody soft hearted. maybe thats why he always takes advantage of that point of mine and takes me for granted.

urgh. enough of him. dont want to talk abt the shitty things that happened today. anyways, i just put up some poems which i wrote recently. do go there and take a look or read through it. u'd know how i feel all this while.

remember i mentioned in my previous entry that i wrote something for jon? i dont know wat to call it, cos i dont think it is a poem... the 'letter' is called 'Our Love, Our Life.' i'll put it here...

Our Love Our Life

My life revolves around you. Our love, our life as two became one. I have no doubt that I love you. Never have I felt this way for someone. You may say that you're someone difficult to be with but look, we've come so far in this relationship. Even further than I've expected. You've been my support, my shelter and my love.

As time goes by, my feelings only become stronger, not weaker. There were times where I couldn't breathe cos I was overwhelmed but I came through because of my love for you.

I want to mature and grow old with you. I want your children in me as they symbolize our love for one another. As I would look into our children's eyes, it would be filled with love and passion. Everything which I see when I look into your eyes.

Life would never be the same without you and I'm glad you've become part of me.

I hope that in life I'll be with you and in death I'll be there with you. Nothing can replace or take away my love for you. Not even death or illness.

I love it when our lips lock and our eyes meet, it feels like I've seen and tasted paradise and would never be sick of tasting you.

The way your fingers run through my hair, how you'd kiss my hair and love me with your fingers. My skin just grows hot with each loving touch as though I was put on fire.

My heart, mind, body and soul yearns for your presence every single moment. My body aches for you to be near.

I've given you my heart, please take good care of it just as I care for yours. PLease never stop loving me, I can never bear to think there a day without your love.

-End-

im dead tired.. im gonna go to bed already, can barely keep my eyes open. ok, im going to stop here for now. blog soon. take care you all. bye!

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