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its not tat i havent been home to post stuff here but that i really dont have anything interesting to post. ok. first thing i got back home was to check for mail. there were three letters for me. yay! cos i finally got the debit card which i applied for. it works somewhat like a credit card. somewhat. heh. then another is a letter from school. about orientation and stuff. but i doubt i'd be going for it. number one, though im doing year one all over again, but im not a freshie. i was a freshie and i have been there and done tat. fuck it man. got tat compulsory freshie thingy to go for. but i'd most probably skip it somehow or the other. =P

oh yeah.. im kinda still working at thawu. did i mention tat venessa was terminated by stephen without any reason watsoever? or should i say just cos venssa doesnt get along with jaime? anyways, ryda just resigned too. tat bitch should have done tat a long time ago. never knew tat she was a fat two headed backstabbing bitch. but after all tat hoo-ha at thawu when i was on leave for a week.. finally saw everything unveil. angie is also another person who cant be trusted.
i sorta quit like two weeks ago.. but then stephen kinda asked me to think it thru carefully and said tat he needed me. and i sorta went back to thawu. cos one thing is tat i need the cash. pretty badly in fact.
things r pretty okay btwn me and jon. going pretty well i'd say. our relationship is becoming more stable. we dont bicker as much as we did before. maybe cos we try to talk things out more and look from one another's perspective and understand wat's going on, instead of fighting and getting angry at one another. i think im still falling deeper and deeper in love with him. i dont know why. i just love him, everything about him. even his faults, his bad temper, his insensitivity(sometimes), his silli-ness and his attitude problem. lately, jon's been bumming around at home.. going out and stuff, cos he's been retrenched. he still does part-time work for his company but its like a few days in a week kinda thing. he still hasnt paid his debt to m1. roughly about 500 bucks. hahah. my debt is slightly more than his actually. 600 over bucks. tats why i said earlier that i need the money pretty badly. need about 300 bucks before the end of the month. and i only have like 5 days to come up with it. fuck. *makes calculations* doubt i can come up with the full sum.. maybe 250 or so.. who knows..

jon's dad got into an accident. he was knocked down by a car while he was riding on his scooter. he sprained and fractured both his wrists and it is making it hard for uncle joe to move anything with his hands. then just yesterday, it was anne-marie's birthday. i was invited to go for her celebration thingy at Next Page. Jon, Joanne, Puran(jon's brother-in-law) and I went down together, and i was actually planning to go home to change first then meet them there, but joanne said she'd lend me clothes. which she did. i borrowed a denim dress from her and borrowed aunt ruby's heels. i looked pretty nice. =) it was such a nice feeling to be accepted by jon's family and be loved by them. best part is tat joanne has almost become like a sister to me, my own sisters dont even want to lend me clothes. how ironic huh? had fun at the party and went for supper with the whole lot of them. =)
heh, jon just called me.. its already like almost 5 in the morning. i came home from his place at 2:30am. came home cos i didnt have any clean clothes anymore. had to come home to check my mail anyways. mom wants me home anyways. he says he misses me. i kinda miss him too. he said that he is used to seeing me everyday and it's odd if he doesnt get to see me. know wat? i kinda feel the same too. i love seeing him and having him around me. silly him asked me if i could go back to his place when i just got back home like for barely 3 hours. not that i dont want to but its gonna be a strain on my pocket. dont have the cash to take so many taxis around. esp with the midnight surcharge. how i want to be with him every minute of the day. i just cant get enough of him, but i dont want him to get sick of me cos we see one another every day. but i just dont want to make it seem like im not giving him his space and tat i need to see him all the time. he knows that i trust him. and he knows tat i dont mind him going out and hanging out with his friends and doing the guys stuff. i know he needs friends too. as much as i love him, i think we need time off one another from time to time. gives us a chance to miss one another. just like now.

fuck. i really miss him.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. i really do miss him. no i cant cry. too stupid to cry just cos im not with him at this time of the night.
i miss him. i miss kissing him, i miss touching him. i miss having him make sweet love to me. oh fuck i miss him so much.
steph, get a grip.
go sleep. yes i should go sleep.
sleep.
nite.